Neil is my birth son, he was born on December 22nd 1981 in Holles Street Hospital in Dublin Ireland. He was my first born child and was kept in my heart for the 19 years that we were apart. Those years apart where the hardest and most lonely part of my life. It was like a limb and had been severed from me. I was 20 years old a month before Neil was born and I loved him from the very first moment he took his breath of life. I wanted to keep my son more than anything in the world, but events that were beyond my control forced me to lose my son to adoption, through bullying, coercing and lies…..I had no support and his father was long gone. The hardest thing I have had to do was to say good bye to my sweet boy in that hospital room I was in a mother and baby home in Ireland and my treatment there was appalling and left me with many mental scars. There was not a day that went by that I did not think of him and wonder if he was well and happy. I would look at my other 3 children and wonder did he look like any of them?

On the 13th of November 2000 I was reunited with my lost boy in Dublin thanks to the wonderful people at Adoptionireland where my son had put his details on the online contact register on the site

~see I did not forget you I carved you in the palm of my hand~